Happy Birthday

Cheers to my best friend who would have turned 16 today. He will always remain a special person who forever changed me.

Surprise, surprise.
I have no motivation. Time to complain complain complain. You know, I'd hate to say I'm depressed because I'm probably not. Just.. stupid. My bad weeks have been continuing and actually, those weeks have now officially turned into months. So, three months of shit. Coooool.
I hate complaining. Complaining is really bad. Because, I don't have it that bad. It honestly could be worse, but I have no choice and it truly disgusts me. This further brings on the fact that this year, I have become even more disgusted with myself. Durrrrrrrr..
Jeez. I can't even help myself let alone others. Extreeeeeeeme anti-motivation.

I feel great.
Fuck sarcasm.


I could really go for a 4th of July right now. I had a SHITTY one this year. Wait, no, I didn't. I spent 8 hours with my good friend, Justin, that day. It was great. But that evening was terrible. Oh well.

I love America.

I miss Irene's house.

I hate the fact that I keep putting this off on Fridays. Because what happens is that I don't get to give myself time to thoroughly think about of what I want to write. Another thing is I keep limiting myself on what I want to write, but that's probably because I hate what it becomes. I should've made this a private blog.
It's hard being 'myself' because that's the kind of person I don't want to be and I constantly get criticized about it.
I could totally refer to Tuesday's quick write, but I don't feel like dedicating my whole blogpost to it even though it's highly recommended. Especially since I'm all over the place right now.

I need to commit.