Renewed Goals

I truly believe that I have not improved as much as I wanted to these past few months..
Why? I don't even know bro. I suppose it's because of my lack of this and that and constant tumble overs that just screw me over. I realized that once the 500 word mark was required, I had to borrow ideas. I understand that it's perfectly fine to do, but it's not what I originally wanted to do. I wanted to bring up my own ideas and curiosities, but it just haven't been.. happening. I don't know what else to say about my writing so I'll just talk about other academic goals.

So far, I'm very proud of myself. My total outcome for this year is incredible. I've made so many improvements and new accomplishments. I have also gained more confidence too (kind of.. it varies). For the first time in my life, I've achieved a 3.6 GPA and made it onto honor roll. I'm pretty sure it's a great accomplishment, right? My mother has been going crazy about it. She constantly brags to her friends or family even though my grades aren't entirely perfect. I've also grown to like math which used to be my sworn academic enemy. I'm kind of upset that I'm not able to go into pre-calculus next year since my summer physics course will clash with any other class I might try to take. I guess that's what I get for not paying attention in algebra for like three years.

Along with my achievements, I do have many disappointments.
I switched my claaaasses! Afrlgkjfklh'lk; I still haunts me everyday because it's just so shameful. It makes me feel so unprepared for unexpected things in the near future because you can't always go choosing your superiors or teachers. I'm really neutral on this situation because I have two sides to it: I should be able to take up the challenge and prove myself vs. I used to be a shitty student so I can't handle this shit right now.
God damn I'm so lame.

The biggest goal I have right now is to make it through AP Physics next year! It's the one thing I'm looking forward to-- yet at the same time afraid of. I'm really glad that I want to take AP physics because 1.) I enjoy the subject and 2.) I want to possibly major in it and have it involved in my future careers. I suppose I'm just afraid that I'll be unable to keep up and just fall behind with no hope of catching up. It's apparently a really difficult class and more than 100 students attended the informational meeting so I'm also afraid of the competition of getting in. Wow, I just sound ridiculous now. But yeah.. I don't know. Small stuff? Hopefully taking a class over the summer will help prepare me. I mean, the closest thing I got to physics was 8th grade physical science-- which I didn't even pass. I'm screwed.